Tired!!

 So its back to work today, now I’ve never been a fan of working for a living but hey ho needs must etc but this time the resigned feeling I’ve got because I know I have to go deal with the twerp that is my current manager, guess we have been so lucky with our past bosses but this current one!!! Give me strength, I know I’m going to need it!!

Nudging Despair

 So last week we headed off to Paris in our old camper, and unlike previous trips where I get excited before we leave I spent the preceding days fucking high on the anxiety ladder!! So bloody bad that I wasn’t sure I could actually make the trip!! BUT I have a partner and a daughter who were high on excitement for the trip so what could I do? I did what I believe most caring folk would do and I swallowed my anxiety and bloody got on with it!! I’m so fucking glad I did as the trip was amazing, weather not so as it rained so hard at times Noah would have freaked!! The Hippy Wagon (camper)  performed flawlessly and the camp site was perfectly placed if a little basic.

The turning point for me was my partner getting down on one knee and proposing to me at the top of the Tour Eiffel..  I am still speechless!! I returned home on a massive high but sadly it didn’t last!! Today I learnt of the passing of a very very good friend and to say I’m devastated is so fucking wide of the mark!!! Why oh why can’t we be allowed to enjoy a high without some negative shit being thrown at our feet!!

Today I am most thankful to my daughter for being here, bringing me un-filtered love just when I needed it the most!! Life sucks then you die!!!